Sumit, Resist and the devil shall flee from you..

Time and again god brings to us, his vessels, who are loyal and Ives us a heads up, a warning, a sign, to move forward....
The past months have had its affect on me, weeks of sleepless n painful recovery days, baby cues, older kids attention seeking, amidst it all, feeling a sense of 'not my real self'......hormone imbalances post te baby, healing time, emotional and physical...a few weeks of feeling left alone, not being cared for....it seemed hard to see what new lesson god was teaching....

It's a little more clear, he wanted me to rethink of my ways of life, my priorities, my deals, my sacrifices, my heart..god really cares for me that he brought me to a desolate place, of loneliness inspite of being around people, he showed me that I need him more than he nes me......I am weak, a fallible creature, moulded by his hands, being shaped for his glory. he cannot stand unholiness and lithium, he wanted to purge me, now I know, a little more of his purpose..knew it always, it was hard to embrace it....

He wanted me to think of returnng back to him, set back in line with him the way he desires...he broke me but for his glory....

2 Lights seemingly from the same source

This happened a few weeks ago, as I was sitting down in a prayer at my Church (Agape Trinity church, Sharjah, UAE). It was during the service, that we were all deeply engrossed in the atmosphere of peace and traquility, moments where one can forget oneself and enjoy in HIS presense.

Now the thought or the vision I had was in stages..
1) As we were all worshipping in tongues, I saw a cloud a white ray of cloud, n I mused, God is really pleased with the shouts of joy

There was a pause, I pleaded to him to tell me wat it means....He kept mum:) I almost cried feeling there is no way to interpret wat it meant. I kept worshipping. And then in the next minutes

2) I saw 2 rays of white light ......which seemed parallel to each other.
I was like God, I am a science student, now tell me what exactly does this mean. And I thought this is clear distraction from the devil to stop me from worshipping. I continued, yet no happy with wat I saw...

Then again, it so happened that i saw that there was some difference in the rays, one was significantly while and the other white. N he said, there is a big difference between off white and white. Well yes, scientifically true.
So i asked, wat does that mean again??
He said u want science? I will show u.... !!
#) Trust me.....this was the most touching moment, If u have ever solved a problem and when u see the solution, u get the sense of joy...i almost had it.
I SAW 2 sources of light..yes it was not the same 2 sources of light, which seemed to emit or come out of the same source, but u know my LORD said...take a closer look.